Have you ever had one of those weeks? No – months, yeah.
You ever had one of those months?
You know – where you’re scattered. All over the place. Here, there, a bit behind that tree over there too, down the street?
Up, down, sideways, crooked, this way, that way, upside down and oh – inside out maybe.
Your mind’s on this and your mind’s on that and you’re being pulled into eighty thousand pieces all at once. And you haven’t the foggiest clue as to which way is correct.
It’s not that you’re distracted. No one has a gun to your head.
In fact, you can’t really put your finger on what the actual problem is. You feel psychotic to put it plainly. Because something is wrong, something is pulling you every which way internally, but you have no clue as to what is actually upsetting you.
I’m having one of those months.
There is definitely something wrong. I just don’t know what it is.
Maybe it’s a mental breakdown. Or lack of sleep. Maybe it’s just as random as a leaf falling in front of me as I walk on down the sidewalk.
I could be turning into a zombie, but I think I’d be turning green if that was the case. So I’m ruling that out.
As if mental and emotional issues weren’t enough, now I’m sick. Feels like the bloody flu combined with a sinus infection. Normally, I can ignore being sick, take my antibiotics, and be getting on with myself.
But if I’m complaining, you know I feel like C.R.A.P.
I’m not out for sympathy. I don’t like that, I like to keep my yick to myself and let you all see the good, bubbly, happy, positive, somewhat disturbed crazy person that I am.
But this just plain sucks.
This does alleviate one issue though. I was wondering why I felt so exhausted that I couldn’t turn my brain on enough to work on my writing. Now I know it’s because I was getting sick.
But anyway, I’m telling you awesome crazies this for one purpose: don’t ditch me! (Okay, so that’s a somewhat selfish reason – don’t leave me! lol) If I happen not to post anything for the rest of this week or next week, know I’m coming back.
Subtracting the fact that I’m sick and all effects it would NOW have on me mentally and emotionally…
While I’m away for a possible week (I really hope not!!! I like you guys and doing this blogging stuff! Plus I’ve kept on schedule thus far…) let me know what you guys do when you have a scattered, mental ‘I dunno what’s wrong but something’s got me irked, scattered, unsettled’ feeling, like I explained above…
Do you have scattered, strange blocks of time where you feel upset but you don’t know what over? Do you feel unproductive and ‘iffy’ even though the facts are telling you that you’re doing everything that you should be to meet your goals?
Do you ever just feel ‘ugh’?
We’re going to call this having the Urge to Zombie. Cuz when I feel mentally ugh and scattered I just want to sit around and do nothing but eat, watch tv shows, movies, read, and hang out.
If you have had the Urge to Zombie, what do you do about it?
Let me know …. I’m curious how other peoples’ minds work.
Also, Just FYI: I FINALLY finished messing around with my three pages up on the top. Hallelujah. I now have a blog bouncer. And he’s fuzzy.